(Ninety four)

(bonjour, mon petit bébé.)

I have been busy with
school
&
friends.


[libbylove&i taken by her main man Max.]


[smashly - Holga 120GN 35mm film]

I made a 76 on my first Literature essay.
Ouch.
But the directions were super hard
&
I know I must try harder next time.



[my lover & i]

I have been missing my lover a lot.
Well,
only approximately 141 days until I see him again.



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(Ninety three)

(bonjour, mon petit bébé.)

I dyed my hair red.

I love it.

I feel like a Valentine.

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(Ninety two)

(bonjour, mon petit bébé.)

I am an Art Machine.

I create every day.

Sometimes it is because I am forced to for a "grade".
{I hate being forced to do art.
How do you force something free?}
Other times it is because I am inspired.


I do not understand why I create.
I just do.
I must or I will die.

And it is for me & you.
Not for him or her.
I don't care what they say.
They don't understand anyways.


[ Trying to avoid doing my conceptual autobiographical drawing ]


It is dark & gloomy today.
Quite nice.

I watched this last night.

It was amazing.

I have been listening to this ever since:

It is a beautiful song.



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(Ninety one)

(bonjour, mon petit bébé.)

Good morning, February.

I have been busy with keeping busy.

We had an ice storm.

I played inside.

Drawing.

Knitting.

Watching Bewitched on Hulu.

Reading.

Among other things.


It has been nice.


[Holsum White is made out of 100% Homemade Vanilla Ice Cream!]
[I laughed very hard when I found this; it made me miss him terribly]
[Eno River Festival - July '09]

"O, I have bought the mansion of a love,
But not possess'd it, and, though I am sold,
Not yet enjoy'd: so tedious is this day
As is the night before some festival
To an impatient child that hath new robes
And may not wear them"
-Juliet


[Calvary wires - BeLOMO Vilia 35mm Afga]

I get paid today.

Which is exciting.

I want to buy more:
rubber stamps
120mm film
some jeans
a new pair of shoes, preferably brown Mary Janes
metallic digital photo prints

among other odds and ends.


[clouds in puddles - BeLOMO Vilia 35mm Afga]

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(Ninety)

(bonjour, mon petit bébé.)

I have nothing to say.
I've just been doing the whole
school
art
life
thing.

I just have so much stuff to do.



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(Eighty nine)

(bonjour, mon petit bébé.)


They say it is a slow and painful death.




They're right.

But it is so worth it.
And I'll scream 'til I die.


[lain]

I feel like I live in the Wired now.
I don't really go out anymore
besides school & the few true friends I have.
Long distance sucks.



[baby is like why?]

I have been enjoying my time alone away from the world.
I have just been doing school
&
trying to be creative on every level.
Though sometimes when I am all alone in the house
for awhile
I begin to hear things and start to panic.


I may have to quit my job.
But, everything will be okay.
I'll just find another one.
I'm pretty good at that.

No use crying over spilled chocolate milk.
[well...just maybe]



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(Eighty eight)

(bonjour, mon petit bébé.)

"Life seems nothing more than a quick succession of busy nothings without you"
- Jane Austen

I have been getting up around six in the morning.
I feel like the clock is a liar.
I miss my lover even more than I have ever before.
I pray the next seven months will go by quickly.
I just can't stand to miss you.

I have a colorization project for computer art
&
a repetition study for drawing
due on the 27th;
along with whatever photography will be throwing at me
and an gets assigned next week for literature.
And somehow,
I am still bored.
Yet,
I feel swamped at the same time.

Well,
I am going to sleep to dream about my Romeoboy.


[curtians - 35mm black&white canon ae-1]

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